einstein and avocado

i seem to have a continual script running through my mind the last couple of weeks.
between endless hours at work, managing tasks at home, the urge to be creative, the endless to-do list that continually compounds....  and all the other minor thoughts that run through my mind....
i'm having trouble balancing everything.
last week was especially challenging for me.

marriage is a wonderful blessing.
simply put -- there is always someone on your team.
unfortunately i feel as though it was one of the weeks where we were looking out for ourselves and didn't team up to take on the world.
it happens.
maybe in my exhaustion and selfishness i wasn't aware of something that mitch was dealing with,
or i was simply focused on myself and needed all the attention on me.
for whatever the case... it was a challenge.
and those seem to be the times that a good cry and a verbal vomit are a necessity.



on a completely different note --
i picked up my pigs on monday.
they are a york and hampshire cross.
boy and girl - einstein and avocado.
14 weeks old and rather shy so far.
these darling little pigs smell like old people and salty play dough.
i adore avocado's speckled bum and her timid way.
einstein is quite the little man.

a few things i've learned about pigs --
1) they are not soft like dogs or calves....
2) they are a solid animal... not one meant to be snuggled
3) so far they are not in love with human interaction.... {which will make it easier to raise for dinner}
4) again - they smell like old people and salty play dough and their poops look like my doggy poops.
5) they absolutely love tomatoes.

once again i'm grateful for a grandpa who is allowing me to try on the farm girl boots.
i'm loving every minute of it {so far}

100 and a wedding

the last few weeks have been insanely busy.
consumed mainly with work.
i've managed a few hours off yesterday and today and it feels amazing.
i don't quite know what to do with myself...
actually i've filled those hours with house work and yard work {naturally}

saturday was mother's day at work and seems to be one of the best in a couple of years.
i spent the majority of the day taking care of everything.
mitch spent the day with mom and dad helping prep for ashley and brendon's wedding.
i managed to sneak out after 4pm and make it to the reception in slc just after 6pm.
welcome {officially} to the family brendon.
what a beautiful little family ashley has.
kennady darling in her dress and cowgirl boots!

i had put in over a 100 hours at work over the last two weeks.
mitch had been putting in over time at his work too....
we are so exhausted and eager for a little recouping....

day dreaming

i think it's natural to day dream whenever you are traveling. imagining living in the place you are visiting and exploring. as mitch and i drove through ventura we passed this gorgeous home and wondered what it would be like to live a few blocks from the beach. living in such a beautiful coastal town. taking the boys to play in the ocean everyday.... the pace of the town was calling to us. we even pulled up mitch's property app and looked at home prices.

we loved walking the pier/boat harbor. listening to the sea lions, the tourists, and watching everyone and their dog enjoying the evening. it was magical if you asked me.

but when it really comes down to it... i'm in love with my home. born and raised here in utah i don't know if i could ever find another place that speaks to my heart the same. not to mention there is no yards to speak of in california. i think that my quarter acre corner lot may be small for my grand goals of gardening... but coming home to my yard it seemed ginormous. yes i may be envious of california's growing conditions... however i'm 100% in love with my home, my yard, and being near family.

when i really dream of our future, i dream of property. never in a million years did i anticipate my heritage, my upbringing, my roots to surface in such a manor. i want to have a homestead. mitch wants enough property to have a 'go cart track', i want plenty of space to garden, raise chickens and some livestock {mitch hasn't fallen in love with my ideas yet....}. the more we watch the news and hear of the unfortunate events world wide, the more we want our little place of heaven. a place that we can develop and grow and tend.

so as appealing as california can be. how amazing the coast line is. our dreams keep us here. growing together and building our future in our home state.

baby plants with a healthy dose of caffeine

personality is a gift

character is a victory

hello wednesday

waking up this morning was a minor challenge.

i'm exhausted but know this is just the beginning of the spring busy season

laying in bed earlier i realized all the plants that will be arriving this week...

more than i originally recalled.

honestly it's just fine.

this truly is my most favorite season 

especially with receiving all my baby plants

grateful for the sunshine and some caffeine to get me going...

my dreams have been rather vivid the past few nights

perhaps that is contributing to my sleepiness

last night i attended a training dinner put on by our garden wise distributors.

i  was excited to see my staff all attend. 

hopefully they learned some things that will benefit our customers 

and i won't be the only one answering questions 

this season really will be awesome

a little bit of february

february is almost over and it seems like yesterday was the first.
it's been a wonderful and full month so far.
i spend every day at work and barely squeeze an hour or two off right now.
on the bright side i truly love my job.

we are attempting to get into a solid work out routine and improve our nutrition.
p90x is quiet the program and we'll need to work into it {that's for sure}
it does feel good getting into healthier habits.
however we have had quiet the week of indulgence....
who could resist with valentine's day and brunch with close friends
and meeting up for dinner with them before a chick flick last night.
alyson and i decided we need to 'practice' girl's night... because the boys tagged along.
i suppose that might be the case for the rest of our lives.... partly because mitch and joe are like brothers.

spring is starting to tease us.
and my flower beds at home are showing signs of life.
i seriously can't wait for the days to lengthen and for it to gradually get warmer.
my life needs more color and the garden is the ultimate source

we said goodbye to the jeep
{what a nightmare of a story}
and i now inherit the hybrid and mitch is driving his {current} dream vehicle - a big bad truck.
{oddly enough} i already love it.
comfortable, smooth ride and huge cab - with plenty of room for the boys.
i strongly believe that dogs should never ride in a truck bed!

next friday is the first of March
and it's the beginning of my most favorite month.
{i'm crossing my fingers the snakes stay out of my greenhouse}
the greenhouse will quickly fill with all my 'baby' plants and my soul will be happy.
and my body will be tired.... in a good way.

a little beauty

it's wednesday night

i'm beyond exhausted.

grateful to have accomplished a couple things on my to do list.

what better way to end the night then with a little beauty of the temple at christmas....

white snuggles

how precious are my boys snuggling each other?!!
it made my heart melt!!
golly i love my boys.

mitch thinks he has a kidney stone :(

i went to see my NP yesterday.
haven't been feeling my best lately.
ordered a lab to check my thyroid levels.
crazy that it's been a year since i found out i have hypothyroidism.

working everyday.
making progress in pumpkinland cleanup
looking forward to the holiday season and poinsettias

looks like winter is arriving today
horrible wind, rain and hail mix this morning
mitch is still commuting to slc for training...
he said the weather was worse
maybe we'll end the day with snow.
i know the boys would love to play in it

verbal vomit

sometimes i'm beyond exhausted when i come home from work and can barely manage to do anything. tonight being one of those nights. it is also paired with zero patience/tolerance for anything. i'm not the nicest wife when those are combined...... all i want to do is lay still and not be bothered. the tiniest thing will set me off. i'm sorry mitchel for snapping and having my attitude drive you downstairs. i'm pretty sure i could fall asleep right now. however it's only 7:40 right now. the poor boys could really use some time out. since mitch is in training in slc right now and i'm working all day, i feel like the boys need more time out and about as well as time with us. sigh.

last night we got invited to go to some castle of chaos mystery something or another by joe. i totally bailed on the idea after giving it a minute thought. i had no desire to spend our halloween out on the town. instead i wanted to curl up in bed and hide from the trick or treaters. i'm definitely an old fart. i did make it up to mitch by watching a scary movie with him. {he really wanted to go with joe and alyson} grateful the movie was along the lines of zombies and it was horrifying. rather intriguing surprisingly enough.

today at work i enjoyed the quiet that immediately arrives with november. good bye october. it was fun. i probably won't start missing you until next year. i think it has to do with the thousands of children i see all through pumpkinland. it's appalling how poorly behaved kids are these days. if i ever tried to pull half the crap they do, i would have gotten a good spanking. thank you mom and dad for teaching me manners and how to be a good person. october also acts as a double dose of birth control. we are 3 years married and i'm still not ready for children. abby however is 3 months married and is so excited that she found out she was pregnant. i'll be an aunt again. abby will be an incredible mother and i'm so happy for her. this is exactly what is wants.

i've just about doubled if not tripled the amount of caffeine i need to manage my days over the last month of two. it's not good. but it keeps me going. i need to get back in to a exercise routine as well. especially since the store hours have changed to 9-5 for the winter months. my tummy would appreciate some toning up again.

we've lived in our home just over two years now and i'm finally ready to 'polish' it off. i'm craving new furniture. charming decor. curtains for my office. more pictures for our walls. a new table for the kitchen. matching bedroom dresser to our bed.

perhaps i just needed a few minutes to just vomit my thoughts out here. its therapeutic.  

exhausted

50 hrs this week.... trying to make up lost time from last week..

came home drained on sunday.

4 hour nap sunday afternoon.

cuddles with my boys.

early bedtime

10 hrs yesterday at work.

come home and barely had the energy to curl up on the floor once i made it home.

slept in til 7:30 ish.

another 10 hours at work today......

the fall weather has turned rather chilly

looks like rain tomorrow and possibly snow

hoping the next few days pass quickly. 

saturday we are celebrating our 3 year anniversary

props to my hubby and a day in bed

there is something absolutely charming about drinking from a pint jar. i'm treating myself to a little pepsi this afternoon. it's been awhile.... but since it's the end of july and this week is going to be fabulous {hello 3 days of work!} today called for a treat.

i'm beyond proud of my hubby. friday night he got the crazy inclination that he needed to build us a big gate for our back yard. {granted that it will come in handy} so our lovely friday evening turned into errands.... saturday i headed to work and left mitch to his own devices for the day. he's never really built anything by himself {if i'm correct} so i wondered how it would turn out. i had confidence in him though. mitch has really showed me how handy he can be since becoming a home owner. a trip with him to the hardware store on my lunch break, a little lunch and back to work we both went. i have to give mitch serious props for this project. he did a fabulous job and from scratch no less. no plans or anything. i have a feeling there is more behind the sudden gate building then he leads onto.... {four wheeler anyone?}

yesterday was a bad day for me health wise. i managed to sleep in some, love on the boys, eat some breakfast and keep a headache at bay. mitch was in charge of teaching our primary class but i helped out with a story and activity. i'm very grateful for the opportunity i have to serve in a calling with my spouse. it's by far the best way to serve i've decided. church was wonderful and our class went well. unfortunately i felt like my blood sugar was incredibly low since i felt super shaky. after church we came home and i snacked a bit and mitch was a sweetheart and encouraged my nap - for as long as i wanted. i felt slightly better when woke up after 5..... i made us a super delicious cookie bar for a treat and then crashed on the couch. and that is where i spent the rest of the evening. i barely managed the energy to cook dinner but glad i did. it's funny how bad health days sneak up behind you and bite ya hard.

a slow paced morning

{photo taken on our trip to Zion's}

last night I crawled into bed to read my new Yoga magazine. {super giddy about it. another fabulous birthday gift from my Mitchel} sadly I couldn't keep my eyes open though. I dozed off quickly and woke after 10 to potty the boys and find out when Mitch would be home and then crawled back into bed. The boys announced Mitch's arrival home and who knows what time, as I rolled over half awake {barely} I enjoyed a snuggle from him and fell right back to sleep.

sunrise came and so did the boys wake up call. another quick trip outside for them, a couple of ibuprofen and I was right back to sleep. My goal was to make it to yoga this morning but my body had other plans - Sleep and lots of it.  I slowly made my way out of bed after 8. Enjoyed a bowl of cereal and crawled back into bed. Some mornings are just meant to be slow paced. a little yoga at home, some deep intentional breathing and I'm feeling a little bit more prepared for today. {although I would be delighted to spend the rest of the day in bed.... perhaps next week}

running through my head

girl's night with my sweet lady Jaclyn// constantly craving to be in my comfy bed. I've been more fatigued lately// packing healthy lunches// cooking dinners often. all the fresh produce helps// enjoying more evenings in the back yard// my coneflowers are breath-taking this year!// meet Mavrick our new store kitty. he was a stray that I bribed with food to come near. 4 days later he's such a sweet friendly little guy.he's already earned his keep.// my blueberries keep disappearing.... I finally managed to pick a few for myself.// evening harvest of a heirloom tomato and my first artichoke from the garden. it was delicious. 

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I talked myself into Pilates Monday night. It had been too long. I never regret a workout and I'm so glad I went. This week seems to be on a better path because of it. Plus I was able to make it to Yoga Wednesday morning {before the dentist}it was exactly what I needed {as always}. I'm looking forward to yoga tomorrow morning too. Summer has managed to keep me away from the gym so far. I've enjoyed living life but am glad I'm getting back into the swing of working out. 

Mitch and I had planned on going up to Bear Lake next weekend. Financing don't agree with that idea. We've decided to spend that vacation time at home and are very much looking forward to it. Perhaps I'm turning into an oldie.... I prefer spending time at home. 

We have been living it up the last few weekends. After Abby's wedding we had her darling friend Vanessa stay the night with us and we all went out to a late night movie. Boy did my body revolt against me. I did have a wonderful time with Vanessa, Peter and Mitch though. Mitch and Joe talked me into another late night movie last Saturday. I was smart enough to drink some caffeine before going. We saw the new Batman. Amazing show. Surprised I handled the lateness so well {thank you Caffeine} and perhaps that's the reason I've continued being more exhausted. Mitch and I felt 'young' again {pre-wedding} since we were out so late. 

On a morbid note... I'm grateful to know that if Mitch were to ever pass and my Nanna wasn't married that she would totally move in with me. Mitch and I talked a little about it since I saw the updated life insurance on the table today. He said he'd want me to sell the house and move home. In my mind I'm thinking no way jose. I'd stay in our cute little home with my charming yard and with my two fur babies. I would be happy. Moving home {I love you family but....} not my happy thought. Good thing Mitch isn't going anywhere soon!!! PHEW.

My goal tonight was to come home and weed out two large buckets of weeds. Mitch went shooting with Joe and Chase. So it was perfect for me to spend time in the yard. I'm not someone to easily jump back into things when I'm spooked {my unwelcome snake visitor}. Even though the last two weeks I've mowed I haven't had any surprises.... I was nervous weeding out my flower bed. I harnessed Jake and Cezar up and had them hang out with me. What a fabulous solution to my anxiety problem. The boys loved being out front and I was able to dig around in the my flowers. I was quickly reminded how therapeutic gardening is for me {even if it's simply pulling out weeds}. I also trimmed off the runners on my strawberries and gave my ginormous tomatoes a haircut. in hopes of getting better light and air circulation into the center of the plant. Crossing my fingers... I can't wait to eat more heavenly goodness from my own little garden. 

live and let live

it's a hard lesson to learn.
I'm trying more and more to accept everyone and everything for who and what they are.
everyone has their own agency and gets to experience life in their own way.
we all have our own voice of conscience
we don't need everyone playing the roll for us

tonight as I was sitting on my patio enjoying the light breeze and trying to cool down {Jake is a mini furnace}
I watched as the boys were tearing around the back yard burning off the last little bit of energy.
in that moment I was a warm fuzzy happy inside
just an hour earlier I was having a 'holly' moment.
I was exhausted and worn out and ready to crawl into bed and indulge in it....
however since the sun was still out, we hit play and watched another episode of our current show.
as I was basking in my warm fuzzy happy moment
I realized that I experience 80-90% good
and only 10-20% bad
gratefully I've come a long way from were I was last year at this time.

each day brings new light
and each day I take another step
some days are easier than others
some days I make more progress in becoming the woman I am {have the potential to be}

my bad moods don't last as long as they used too
and even though I'm consistently tired
{thank you dear health}
I find that I'm progressively in a better place

I'm only human though...
and heaven only knows how many faults I have
but I see growth inside myself.

you can't judge my choices

without knowing my reasons

-unknown

moments from today

1: getting up and making it to yoga. incredible, invigorating, refreshing, relaxing.... so so good
2: i'm in love with my garden on a whole new level this year. more fresh beets.
3: health in a jar. I juiced 4 pints of beet, carrot and apple juice. it was good and I loved the color
4: after mowing the front lawn I finally got hungry and ate chips with salsa and guacamole
5: i love my hen and chicks
6: my anemone bloomed :) so gorgeous
7: watering my garden
8: jakey sitting with me
9: harvested my first tomatoes of the year!!! HOOORAY! Then I made greek salad for lunch tomorrow. yum

the fresh juice was like an energy boost this morning.... I felt good and kept going. it was 3 before I knew it and I had to finally head inside for a break. I laid down for a nap not realizing how exhausted I was and crashed. luckily I had already put dinner in the crock so it'd be ready for Mitch on his lunch break {it's his late night at work}. we had delicious pulled pork BBQ sandwiches. with spending so much time getting caught up on yard work today.... I didn't notice how much sun I was getting.... hello sunburn. #2 this week. I've been laying low this evening. still feel over exhausted and perhaps a little dehydrated. little cezar isn't a fan of laying after our first nap. hopefully he'll sleep sound tonight. between Mitch and cezar they toss and turn and keep each other awake more often then not.

good news and bad news

so last week I had my Dr visit. it was an hour and a half. we talked about how I was feeling, going over possibilities and then ordered some labs. 6 to be exact. sitting down in the chair to get my blood drawn the nurse asked for my info and then started to prep. I looked away as the needle went in, but then turned and watched as she drew 5 vials of blood. apparently it wasn't as much blood as it looked like. and I don't have ideal veins for giving blood.... she noticed how tiny my veins are even with pumping them. a week went by and I finally got my results back. good news - I don't have Hashimoto's disease {it's a autoimmune disease where the body attacks the thyroid function}. bad news - I still have an active case of mono. I guess I'll slow down and little bit and not try to push myself as much as I was lately. I'm surprised with all the hours I managed to put in during May, I haven't been more run down than I am.

last Saturday we had an insane windstorm and it happened to split our fence. luckily it was still standing enough that it kept the dogs apart. our sweet neighbor took the lead on the fence repair on Wednesday. Friday night Mitch and our neighbor worked on it some more. unfortunately we had another wind storm blow through and we realized there are more weak spots on our fence. they got a lot done and we'll wait til Monday to work on it some more. that way the new post has time to cure in the cement.

while they were working on the fence, I puttered around in the garden watering and weeding. I found my first ripe raspberry. YUMMY. I'm so excited for more to ripen. the boys sat with me and we watched them work on the fence for a little bit. they are full of energy because we have to keep an eye on them in the back yard since the fence isn't done. it'll be nice when they can have free range of the yard again and I don't have to worry about them breaking into the neighbors backyard.

We had Kennady's {our niece}birthday party Saturday afternoon. It was at the Zoo. Even though it was crazy busy and parking was a nightmare, we had a lot of fun. I'll have to post some pictures from our adventure.

a day off

yesterday I crawled into bed about 6 and rested for awhile. I was waiting for Mitch to put the new intake in on his car. Unfortunately it took a lot longer than he expected so dinner was pushed aside for 2 hours. Once he was done we grabbed Cafe Rio and curled up on the couch. It was a perfect way to spend the evening. 

Having a day off mid week is unbelievably fabulous. I loved having today off being able to take things as they happened. From our insane 100 degree weather on Monday to a chilly 65 on Tuesday, we slept very well last night. With such a sound rest it was hard for me to crawl out of bed and head to yoga this morning. As always I'm glad I did. My poor body is stiff and achy and yoga is the magic medicine for me. I brought home breakfast  for Mitch and I. He works the late shift on Wednesdays which allowed us to spend the morning together. We even took the boys for a short walk down at the lake before he had to work. {we really need to be better about walking them.... their energy was off the walls before we went}

I decided that I would listen to what ever my body wanted to do today. So after our walk, I sat down to rest for a few before I felt the urge to sort out the growing mess of laundry on my side of the closet. Hooray for washing those ginormous piles... I have clothes to wear hanging up now :). 

I was still tired and was lacking the energy I needed to get the planting done I had planned to do. But since I decided to let my body call the shots today, I crawled back into bed with the boys for a nap. Generally I would feel guilty for napping if I had a long list I wanted to get done {which I did} but no guilt today. Every now and then I think we all need to cut ourselves a little slack. 2 hours later I woke up feeling a tiny bit better but let myself absorb the moment. 

A bowl of cereal, a little blog reading, switching of the laundry and a bit of caffeine later; I was ready to finally start in the yard. I planted the rest of my vegetable garden. 7 artichokes. 4 jalapenos, 2 large basil, and my yard long Asian red beans. Weeding, and harvesting rhubarb and baby beets. It was a good start. Watering and deadheading my hanging basket was the next to get checked off. Jake was eager to head back inside. He isn't in love with the outdoors like Cezar is. Cezar is a much better buddy when I'm out in the yard puttering. I made juice with my harvest of baby beets. It's the first time I've ever given the veggie a chance. Mitch said he likes them juiced and so I decided to grow them and give them a try. I juiced tomatoes, carrots, apples and my beets. It was a gorgeous color and rather tasty {thank you apples}. Mitch came home for his lunch break and was grateful for the juice. Spent a little time with him before heading back out to the yard. I was pleased by how much I was able to plant and take care of in the yard today. I feel accomplished and rested at the same time. If only I was able to manage this everyday.... wouldn't that be nice. 

Tomorrow I'm heading back to the doctors. I haven't been feeling as well lately. About two weeks ago as I was falling asleep I was thinking about how I was doing so well and making big improvements in my health and then all of a sudden I felt like I was falling backwards. I decided that it was time to see my NP again and see if there is anything more we can do. It's frustrating to feel unwell all the time and I was so lucky to have 2-3 really good months there for a bit. Sure glad my fear of needles is subsiding.

a little bit of therapy

last night I woke up just after 2 am to go to the bathroom and with in moments my head exploded with the most horrible headache. I laid back in bed and thought I might be able to fall asleep.... unfortunately my head just kept pounding. I decided to head downstairs to take some vitamin I, and then I realized I wanted to do Pilates. Weird eh. It's been almost a month since I've made it to class. My body craved the routine of Pilates. I headed back to bed but my craving for exercise didn't subside. I woke up realizing that I have successfully incorporated exercise into my daily life.

I woke up this morning with the same horrible pounding in my head. My sweet Mitch woke up with endless amounts of energy and I couldn't come close to match his energy. All I wanted to do is lay in bed and rest and wish my headache away. Finally I managed {with the prodding of Mitch} to roll out of bed, let the boys back out and eat some breakfast. As we discussed our day, I began to feel a little better and wanted to get a few things accomplished in the yard before I made my way into work.

working in my yard has become a wonderful form of therapy for me. I've been gathering a beautiful collection of plants on my back patio for the last few weeks. my goal was to get them all planted sooner than later and luckily with the cloudy weather I was able to finally get some in the ground. spending the morning getting my hands dirty in my yard seemed to be exactly what I needed. planting, weeding, digging and watering.

my mood is yo yo-ing lately. waking up on the wrong side of the bed, finding a happy balance for a few hours, dragging through the afternoon and then making it home with who knows what mood.... grateful to spend another evening at home and spend Sunday resting up.

taking it one day and one moment at a time lately

Today is one of those days I'm taking one moment at a time.

The boys were antsy to get up and outside.
Potty break around 6:40, crawling back into bed minutes later.
As Mitch gets up and ready for the day I remember I need to wash my work pants.
Hurried downstairs to throw them in the wash
crawled back into bed again.
and spent the next 50 mins staying cozy and flipping through my favorite blog reads, email and other apps
7:58 I hurry to throw on my yoga clothes, feed the boys and make it to the gym on time for yoga.
I'm grateful for the chance to make it to yoga in the mornings {even though I really dislike the closing shift at work}
I'm still so tight and stiff from the past few weeks of work...
it feels good to move, stretch and lengthen my body.
{I highly recommend Yoga to anyone. It has been an incredible addition to my life lately!!}
A quick trip to the grocery store for more of my favorite cereal and cans of caffeine,
unloading and loading the dishes,
putting dinner in the crock pot,
and putting food on my tummy.....
Now I'm sitting in bed enjoying the quiet until I have to head into work.

I'm in need of another spilling....

I'm exhausted

A good night's rest is not enough to get me through my days

I'm excited for Mitch's birthday next Friday because I have two days off!!

My moods are quick to change lately

my to do list is always growing 

but my body isn't quite up the the challenge lately.

Yesterday I accomplished a lot  at work.

Finally got the green house looking more presentable and tidy,

but by the time I made it home and we had come back from picking up dinner....

I was beyond my breaking point.

Dear body, please let me survive another week of work

sometimes it all comes pouring out

I don't recall the last time I sat down and really wrote down what was rolling around inside of me. I've been so busy for the past couple of months that I can't remember the last day off I had besides Sunday. It's probably been at least 2, maybe 2 and a half or even 3 months. Luckily I had been feeling really well. Because of that though I kept pushing myself.

So far this year I've been holding true to many of the goals I had set for the year. Spending less time on the internet, spending more time with the ones I love. Working on myself and my health. focusing on actually living my life to the fullest. I wonder if perhaps I may have lost a few of the things that added meaning and happiness along the way.

Since the middle of January I have been consistently going to the gym at least 3 times a week. Adding exercise into my routine wasn't easy at first but I started loving it and relying on the benefits I was receiving. May is our busiest month of the year and the past 2-3 weeks has been more demanding on my time and body. I hadn't been able to squeeze time into the gym. After 8-10 hour day my body was in need of rest. {Not that I was able to sufficiently give it the rest I needed. This week started with a long Monday, a short day on Tuesday but I spent the middle of my afternoon swimsuit shopping with my sister Abby. {Hell must have frozen over because I came home with a gorgeous new one piece. it was a pretty penny too} Once I finally made it home I quickly started on yard work. The lawn needed to be mowed, and with the forcast predicting rain I couldn't put it off much longer. Watering came next and planting a few things too. As Mitch and I crawled into bed last night he asked what my plans were for the morning since we had a dentist appointment mid morning. I told him I was going to yoga. I needed it and it's been far too long since I had been.

Between the insane wind storm that blew through the night and Cezar's restlessness, I had a lousy night's sleep.7 am my alarm goes off like it does every morning. after letting the boys out for their morning business, Cezar and I crawled back into bed to enjoy the quiet of the morning. I debated if I should fall back asleep or make it to yoga. Yoga won. It was the best decision I made today.

Perhaps with pushing so hard lately I have accidentally put myself in a funk. I need to find a perfect balance. There are days that I rush myself with trying to get everything accomplished and it doesn't leave me in a happy place. It wears me down day after day. On a rare day I find the perfect pace and am able to enjoy the moments and breath a little deeper.

Blogging is a place for me to keep record of our daily lives. It has been a wonderful outlet for me for so long and with the past few months I just haven't been feeling it quite the same. Today as I was sitting at the dentist  everything inside of me started rolling around and bubbling up.and because I haven't exactly felt the urge to spit up my thoughts lately, it caught me by surprise. I'll roll with it though. Maybe letting everything flow out is a start in the right direction.

Next weekend {the 1st} will be my first day off in who knows {march?}. It will be spent with my sweet hubby celebrating his birthday. I don't know what we'll do on Friday and Saturday but it will be wonderful because it'll be spent together {not a work}.

Hopefully I'll continue to let my inner self pour out more often.
maybe even get caught up on some good rest....

This evening when I got home I let the boys out and watered my collection of plants on the patio. I grabbed my camera and spent a bit of time playing. Oh how I loved shooting in manual mode. It felt good.

is it really Monday already?!

Another weekend has slipped past me.

I started Friday morning out getting ready and trying to get out the door on time when I suddenly realize my keys aren't on the table. I gasp as I run into the garage and sure enough my keys are locked safely inside on the passenger seat. Mitch had to be at work super early that morning so I called him and he responds with a text.

Whats up? I'm at work.

My keys are locked in the car!!!

How'd that happen?

You locked them in there last night after we got home from grabbing dinner.

I have a break in 15 min. I'll run home.

Thanks

lol.

I'm supposed to open at 8 :(

Luckily, he was able to make a quick drive by to unlock it for me. I even managed to lock myself out of the house earlier in the week.... gratefully we have a house key hidden outside. No luck with the jeep key though.

I was even able to take off a bit early Friday afternoon and go birthday shopping for Mitch. He is reminding me everyday how close his birthday is.... he's crossing his fingers I don't repeat last year. I'm going to rock his birthday this year. I can't wait to give him his gift on his birthday. yay.

Saturday was another busy day. We moved a lot of plants we were heavy on. It was almost as busy as Mother's day Saturday. I ended up working a 10 hour shift. I was grateful for feeling well and being in a good mood.

Sunday morning I spent laying in bed dozing on and off. I loved the morning light filtering through the cracks in the curtains. We made it to church and were called as primary teachers. CTR 6. It's a good age. After church we managed to scrounge up some lunch for my starving tummy and I even got a 2 hour nap. We also took the boys out during the evening and brushed them. I swear we could've had another Cezar running around with the amount of fur we brushed out of Jake. it was insane. We even attempted to see the eclipse but we had lots of clouds. We tried driving to the lake to see if the view would be better, but the road was closed and we decided to head home. As we turned onto our street, the clouds parted enough that we were able to see it. Pretty neat. 

Now Monday is upon us and both Mitch and I are exhausted and dragging our feet. Hoping I'll survive another 10 hour shift today and have a good week.