Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

i may just be a farm girl

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growing up we had chickens. my momma thought they would teach us responsibility and give us character. it's incredibly easy to love baby chicks and be gun hoe in the beginning..... until they turned into the dreaded chore. i remember getting scolded by my grandma for washing the eggs clean in the kitchen sink, having to brave the dark cold night if i had forgotten to feed and water them and round them up in the afternoons after they spent time out free range (good thing our dog, Cassie managed it most times for us.) i swore up and down that i would never ever ever have chickens when i was grown up.

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i've been surprised by my 25 year old self many times this year. it's as though i have truly arrived in my person. growing up i have sworn off a shocking amount of 'i will never's'. and believe it or not, i have eaten a good majority of my words. (i suppose that is a common occurrence(?))

we also had a small fruit orchard growing up. i hated picking up all the fallen fruit, fresh or rotten. i would have never guessed i'd want fruit trees in my own yard once grown up. currently i have 2 peach, a plum and an apple tree in my yard. another peach and pear tree waiting to be planted. there is something inticing about growing your own fruit and vegetables. perhaps it's knowing where they come from and knowing what they have been treated with. either way.... there is nothing more fulfilling than eating your own goods that you have labored over during the season.

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back to chickens. this year (more like this fall) i have dreamed about bringing home my own laying hens. mitch is against it (for the time begin). during the spring i tracked down some beautiful silky chicks from a local guy. he hatched them and i told him to bring what he had to the store. i was determined to add them to our collection for pumpkinland. silkies are beautiful, not exactly known as layers though. i brought them into the greenhouse with me during april while i planted my plugs. may came and it was a challenge to spend any good time with them... before i knew it, they were gorgeous and out back with our other chickens. i've spent the last month or two dreaming about charming little chicken houses and collecting my own fresh eggs from my back yard. i'm deciding that the self sufficient movement is growing on me. the last thing i want to do is don a skirt and live in the country with out technology..... but i am determined to become more aware of what i do eat and so forth.

i think the point i'm trying to get at..... i'm beginning to realize how much of a farm girl i really am.



now, if only  i can conquer my fear of snakes.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

taking a step forward

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A part of January is spent reflecting about how the previous year, the new year, about ourselves and are we happy with everything. I've been thinking a lot lately. My goals have been set. Looking at last year I would consider it a good year. For 2012 I'm wanting to be better. In both health and mind. I want to nurture my marriage. As I've been rolling everything around in my mind I've come to a few conclusions....

Being constantly exhausted is extremely challenging. 

I need to focus on serving my little family. 

I need to be present in my life. 

Balance is going to be incredible important and key to becoming a better me.

I've read some beautiful posts about balance and rearranging priorities the past few days. Those darling ladies put to words exactly what I've been thinking about. I believe I'm too 'plugged' into the internet/apps. For example Facebook. I think it's a great way to keep in touch to friends and family. BUT I can't count the times I refresh my feed on my phone because I am bored during the day. How often Mitch and I are relaxing in the evenings and we are both glued to our phones.... I can't say I'm proud of it. Yesterday I was at work and finally deleted my Facebook app. It was very freeing. Twitter followed this morning. I need to remind myself that it doesn't matter if I know the recent updates of statues. The internet can wait. I am going to allow myself to check all the status updates from my computer if I so feel inclined. I believe this will be a step in the right direction.

Another goal is when Cezar, Jake or Mitch need attention I need to put down anything that I am doing and focus on them. 

If I need to rest, I need to allow myself too. Turn of the TV, set down my phone, close the blinds and rest. 

My goal for my little blog... It will stay true to me. The good, the bad, the challenges, the beauty. 

I need to do more things that I love!! I don't want to waste my life not enjoying every moment.

all these things will allow me to move forward... allow me to become a better me. 

I look forward to being a better me this year! 

Monday, January 9, 2012

my darling boys and a moment of honesty

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Cezar had a checkup this morning at the vet. Jake tagged along with us. He was anxious the whole. The fatty is 32lbs {less than I thought} and the little one is only 11 lbs. Since Cezar's lameness a week ago, I'm glad and grateful to say that the vet gave him thumbs up. He doesn't show any signs of pain or possibility of a fracture and he'll be able to resume regular activity. Has anyone tried to keep a dog 'immobile'??? It's quite the challenge... but it seems we were successful enough :)

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I've been struggling a lot lately. It all seems to stem from my health. The amount of exhaustion/fatigue I feel continues to amaze me. Mitch told me the other day that everyone feels tired. I have to remind him that my tired doesn't come from having a productive day, I wake up with my tired. Some mornings are better than others. Some afternoons are complete drags. and some evenings I fall asleep at 7 and will wake up for an hour or so and be able to fall back asleep around 10 with ease. Some days after work I lay down and don't have the ability to get back up for quite awhile. I wonder if it's all due to my hypothyroid or perhaps there is another contributing factor. I've been checked for anemia and don't have any problems there. I don't feel like I'm able to anything really good lately. I feel that I'm stretched too thin. I'd love to focus on being good a one thing and eliminating anything that doesn't allow me to focus on that one thing. I mentioned that I want to focus on my health and my marriage. Looking at other areas of my life I'm trying to figure out what I can let go of. I have good days at work and I have days that drag. My calling at church doesn't seem challenging to most and Mitch thinks I have 'plenty' of time to do it.I don't feel that it's right for me at this current time in my life. I have so many good hours in my day and I feel if I spend most of them at work, then the few good hours I have left in me need to be spent with my hubby or being a better wife. does that make sense to you? I want to feel as though I am able to do something good in my day for me or Mitch. I crave to be better. but it's an incredible challenge when all my body needs is to lay down and rest.



Thursday, December 8, 2011

10 things that make me unique




1: I may still sleep with my baby blanket... Mitch even thinks its super funny to hide it from me a occasion 
2: I don't like deodorant. And when I feel like I might need some.... I sneak Mitch's ;)


3: I hunt with my Sister.... Shop with my Brother.
{I plan on getting my hunter's safety this coming year}
4: I'm addicted to cleaning my ears. 
Last year for Christmas, Mitch gave me a box of Q tips in my stocking 
5: I enjoy spending time with friends and family.... But I'm really a home body at heart :)


6: I'm a can a day lady. I love my Pepsi. But every now and then I enjoy a coke :)
7: I sleep with ear plugs. Mitch has to sleep with a fan.
It's the only way I am able to sleep through the night
8: When using wash clothes to clean the kitchen... It's a one time use
They smell bad after that. 
9: I have a really good sense of smell.
{it may or may not bug Mitch lol}
10: I'm rarely on time to anything except for work.
I'm really good at being on time or early there.


What are some things that make you unique??

Thursday, September 8, 2011

{Boundaries}

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I'm learning a lot this year. And one of the big lessons I'm learning is -- boundaries. More specifically I'm learning my boundaries and what I can and cannot do. Many people can take on the world and they look like they have it put together. Sometimes I feel like I can do it too. A few days into tackling the world I become worn out and at my wits end.

I'm apart of the primary presidency for my church and I feel like some days I can manage and other days that's the last thing I care to do. I can barely manage my life.... the last thing I need is a meeting. Tonight was one of those nights. 6:30 rolls around, I'm just getting out of the shower and I'm already late. Finally getting ready and making it out the door I'm saying a little prayer that it's going to be a quick night. It's not. Taking care of some things and then walking around and dropping of CDs of the music for the primary program. It was nice getting to meet a few of the families. As I was walking back to my car, I was talking with Brittany and apologized for not being more involved, but that my life has just been incredibly busy and will be for the next two months. She mentioned that there are more responsibilities but knew when I accepted this calling that I would need time to work into it. As I left I was grateful she knew that ahead of time. I'm learning what I can and cannot do, what areas I can push and what areas that I am more careful of.

No, I'm not always super woman {not that I really care to be}BUT I'm learning about me. And I've decided it is very important to be aware of my boundaries. Better yet, I don't feel guilty for saying no, sorry that's too much etc. I'm in a better place today for knowing my limits and not pushing them. 


Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Putting my face on


You know those days where it makes a WORLD of difference when you put your 'face' {aka. Makeup} ?? I seem to be really good at rolling out of bed, throwing some clothes on, feeding and pottying the boys and racing to my car and getting to work on time. Yet I haven't been making time to put my face on lately. Shame on me. I always feel SO much better, when I'm all 'girly'. {as girly as I can be at my job lol.} I feel a million times better this morning since I made the extra effort to put on my face ;)

Wednesday morning so far has included -- sweet puppy kisses, gorgeous pansies, fall bulbs calling my name, and a beautiful drive into work and of course a nice cold Pepsi :)

**do you feel better when you get all the way dressed and done up?? What makes your morning better??**

Friday, August 26, 2011

Motivation please.

There is nothing worse then feeling blah because of what the scale says when you stand on it.

When I got married 2 years ago I proudly wore my gorgeous size 2 princess dress. I looked amazing AND felt amazing too. I loved being tiny. 5'4" and size 2.... Life was good baby.

Living happily married hasnt been so kind to the waist line. Not to mention that birth control doesn't help.... And standing on the scale at the doctors office didn't make me feel any better.

And what might be called a 'baby' pooch... Yay no baby to blame that on. Okay so maybe 15 lbs might not seem much for many of you ladies... I'm small to begin with right? Well, I don't feel much like myself. I love being sexy and small. Who doesn't!?! And I'm at a healthy weight minus that pesky 15lbs of happy married plus birth control weight.

Here's the other thing... I'm not one for working out... Consistently. Running- no thank you. Jogging- ill pass. Walking- yes please but when the temperature is comfortable. Gym- definitely a no. I eat healthy, always with a side of Pepsi though. And dieting isn't any fun. I believe in moderation {most of the time}.

SO I'm in search of some motivation... I'm looking for my super sexy and tiny self. Any suggestions? Do you struggle with motivation for working out? How do you manage a happy healthy weight?

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Getting to know me:: A - Z





A. age :: 24
B. bed size :: king baby!! :)
C. chore you hate :: cleaning the bathroom, not a huge fan of dishes
D. dogs :: Jake and Cezar
E. essential start to your day :: Ice cold Pepsi
F. favorite color :: Teal/Blue and Pink
G. gold or silver :: Silver
H. height :: 5'4"
I. instruments you play :: I used to play the piano
J. job title :: greenhouse manager @ Vineyard GC, wifey, mamma to my fur babies
K. kids :: fur babies - Jake & Cezar

L. live :: Happy Valley, Utah
M. maiden name :: Taylor
N. nicknames :: Holly Dolly, Dannylynn
O. overnight hospital stays :: none yet

P. pet peeve :: Chewing with mouth open, neighbor's dog pooping in my yard....
Q. quote :: 'If there is one thing you could learn from me it's to never

spread yourself to thin' - Grandpa Holdaway
R. righty or lefty :: right
S. siblings :: Peter, Abby, Savannah, Faith and Hope

T. time you wake up :: Usually about 7. If I'm lucky 8 or 9 on Sundays

U. university attended :: UVU
V. vegetables you dislike: brussel sprouts

W. what makes you run late :: miscalculating the time I have to get ready
X. x-rays you’ve had :: Only at the dentist
Y. yummy food :: My favorite is Cafe Rio's Pork salad. Pizza, Salad, Pulled pork....
Z. zoo animal favorite :: Penguins!!!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

{Me}



I'm finally feeling myself.
2 hour walk.
Watering.
Ladybugs.
Roses.
Bag of weeds.
Laundry.

I'm on a up swing :)

{I adore my boys!!}