Monday, January 9, 2012

my darling boys and a moment of honesty

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Cezar had a checkup this morning at the vet. Jake tagged along with us. He was anxious the whole. The fatty is 32lbs {less than I thought} and the little one is only 11 lbs. Since Cezar's lameness a week ago, I'm glad and grateful to say that the vet gave him thumbs up. He doesn't show any signs of pain or possibility of a fracture and he'll be able to resume regular activity. Has anyone tried to keep a dog 'immobile'??? It's quite the challenge... but it seems we were successful enough :)

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I've been struggling a lot lately. It all seems to stem from my health. The amount of exhaustion/fatigue I feel continues to amaze me. Mitch told me the other day that everyone feels tired. I have to remind him that my tired doesn't come from having a productive day, I wake up with my tired. Some mornings are better than others. Some afternoons are complete drags. and some evenings I fall asleep at 7 and will wake up for an hour or so and be able to fall back asleep around 10 with ease. Some days after work I lay down and don't have the ability to get back up for quite awhile. I wonder if it's all due to my hypothyroid or perhaps there is another contributing factor. I've been checked for anemia and don't have any problems there. I don't feel like I'm able to anything really good lately. I feel that I'm stretched too thin. I'd love to focus on being good a one thing and eliminating anything that doesn't allow me to focus on that one thing. I mentioned that I want to focus on my health and my marriage. Looking at other areas of my life I'm trying to figure out what I can let go of. I have good days at work and I have days that drag. My calling at church doesn't seem challenging to most and Mitch thinks I have 'plenty' of time to do it.I don't feel that it's right for me at this current time in my life. I have so many good hours in my day and I feel if I spend most of them at work, then the few good hours I have left in me need to be spent with my hubby or being a better wife. does that make sense to you? I want to feel as though I am able to do something good in my day for me or Mitch. I crave to be better. but it's an incredible challenge when all my body needs is to lay down and rest.



2 comments:

C Mae said...

Did I miss a post? What happened to your fur baby getting a hint of lame ness to him????

I don't have a thyroid issue, but my heart goes out to you. I'm TIRED just from teaching all day. When I come home, all I want to do is lay on the couch and do NOTHING to unwind!
Hope you get better/or have better days!

Alana said...

My mom had a thyroid issue throughout my life, so I know a little about how horrible it is. She was always tired and taking naps, and always felt guilty because of it. Hope you find a way to make him understand it better!